Ifs and Buts of life...

Perhaps Grace was right. "You are regretful", "I never want to look back and say 'oh, what if I had done this..what if I had done that'". "It's over. You can't think of getting a second back. So, think wisely about your future". Sharp but straightforward.  I was reminded of - 'life is full of ifs and buts'

Words of wisdom. Wisdom comes with age and experience. And of course, not all.

While I was picking my scooter from the shop, my mind was busy as usual, in its pace. Suddenly, there was a flash - a revelation. Am I going to go back to the eternal past?  Had I gone last year, I would have avoided this, had I done this two years back, I would have gone home last year, had I done this previous year, I would have done this and that, or I could have avoided this and that.  Will these ifs ever end? Or, am I going to reach down deep questioning the roots?

But then, it is difficult, very difficult: to explain, to understand and to accept. Sometimes, you don't really want to think about it but you can't help thinking about it. How I wish I could dismiss the thoughts that trouble me!

Life is a domino effect. It is different from co incidents. It can happen in any least expected way. Minor or major, every event, every action does matter in a way. And every action leads us to another action, consciously or unconsciously. Conscious. Yes, you have to be conscious all the time, I mean, ALL the time of your actions.  In life, we cannot afford to have overwhelming anything for that matter. Then the consequence may be disastrous. You might loose the touch with your self, not yourself, but your "self". Once it happens, you might as well find it difficult to listen to your innate wisdom - intuition. You may hear but you may not notice and let it go, unnoticed and unattended. You ignore it. You know how hurtful it is to ignore anything? You hurt yourself and others. Either way. Anyways, it is hurtful. It will be far too late before you realize and things would have gone out of control. If so, you are letting ifs and buts to haunt you. You won't be helped,  even if the universe wants to help you. It is more than coincident!

I believe, all of us can predict, foresee our future to an extent. But still, it is mysterious to achieve clarity in our actions. We know what to do but we are unable to do and willingly avoid doing certain things, unable to control the consequences for there is a fear. Fear of something. Fear for something. There is an invisible force controls us beyond the realm of understanding. Known yet unknown.

There is he, she and they who involved in this ifs and buts. And not forgetting an important personality - YOU.. Always letting yourself to allow things to happen. So, why blaming others? Don't blame the stage if you don't know how to dance. You either dance or you don't . How you dance is entirely up to you.

Now things are pretty much clear, clearer than ever before. Wisdom?! Yeah. After facing the harsh truth of life. There is nothing much matters to me. I just have to mind my way. But this time very mindfully.

For those who have contributed to this ifs and buts in my life- nature will do its duty. I have nothing to do except - FORGIVE. Forgive him, forgive her, forgive them and forgive yourself.

And, it's time to listen to Grace.

Om Shanthi..Om Shanthi...Om..