How would you feel when you are living a life which is not meant to be the way it is? I just felt like giving up. A friend of mine told me yesterday not to give up until all my options are exhausted. My dear, I am too tired to think of anymore options. I don't mind if you can think for me...
Oh, well. We must be positive. Yeah, the end of the dark tunnel is the light. But, how could you possibly know how long it is going to be to see the light? And what if you collapse on your mission to reach the light? I am naturally a positive person. Somebody said today that I am a go- getter. To some extent, his observation is right. When I look serious, down and tired, there must be something wrong, seriously wrong. The best thing that you can do is to give me my space. Or give me company for a movie or a dinner. You are doing a great help. Well, though movie and dinner can be anything, the company must be the right one, not to add to the stress. And, talking of movies, we watched Robin hood last night...craziest time that I ever had in Kuching.
Mental, psychological, spiritual, physical and what not sorts of tiredness. Though those elements seem to be different, they are related to each other. When one is tired, the rest will be so, unless they function on its own or they belong to a different body.
Who knows how long this will go on? As someone suggested, I could take a break, unfortunately, it will be only from work.
And, I am too tired to continue this and so I am signing off...
I guess I'm also in the same situation for the moment. For one reason, I'm not actually enjoying every bit of work, like I thought I would. That's rather demoralizing, I would have to be doing this for the next two years (d least) if I would to give up on it.
ReplyDeleteThen, I'm still keeping options open. Like u said Miss, I've exhausted all my options at one point, I'm holding on to the very few strengths I have left in life, knowing it won't ever be there for long. Eventually, it would fade away. God knows what's gonna happen when that happens. Heartbreak maybe.
I know for once, your plans has all gone haywire, Miss. Initially what was there was gone. So ur sorta lingering around.
Lets make a deal. For as long as I hold on, you hold on, Miss. That's bout all we have left. The light may not be so near to the end of the tunnel for us to see, but at least we have someones hand to hold while we glimpse for it in the darkness.
Is that alright?
Thanks Mitch, I truly appreciate. If there is anythig that I have achieved in my stay here, dat is probably you and few others, though a very few. This morning I heard in Al Jazzera, "the ride to the future is ever going"..i just laughed at the truth.
ReplyDeleteOk, lets go for the deal. Since you are there to hold hands.. :)
I am going to India next week..will write to u later about this....take care..