In denial ...

"An unconscious thought process whereby one allays anxiety by refusing to acknowledge the existence of certain unpleasant aspects of external reality or of one's thoughts, feelings,etc." This is dictionary's definition of  the word denial.
"How long have you been staying in the house?"
"I don't know"
"What?"
"Yeah, rather I don't want to know",
I was surprised with the above. That was between my colleague and me. He justified. My curiosity grew.
"Ok, how long have you been working here?"
"I don't know"
"Oh Ok" Though it was an expected answer, I was surprised again, because I know the way he considers his profession. Well, "I don't want to know". "Why?" "Oh well, you know the ..." "then you shouldn't be here in the first place!" I cut him off. I was too frank. We laughed with the truth. Truth of the statements and  the truth behind his reason.

"Do you know how old are you?" "Well, unfortunately, yes"...interesting. Interesting to know the nature of our mind. And its convenient use of accepting and rejecting facts.

Denial - A defense mechanism coined by Sigmund Freud, was originally intended to refer serious medical conditions or as fatal as death. As language is never static, the meaning of denial has transformed and  is being used loosely, too loosely, I would say.

You are fat, you are dark, and you are less attractive. But how could you be? You supposed to be slim, fair and beautiful and attractive, aren't you?! You love someone so dear, but you don't want anyone know about either you being in love or about the person that you are in love with? But why not? You are working in a place in which you are stressed, but you don't want be there. You can neither accept the fact that you are still there nor reject the fact that you still have to work! Isn't it sad?

Well, the list could go on to pages. But why do we have to deny a fact? Fear of facing the reality? Unless the reality is too harsh!

I think, we are consciously training our mind to be unconscious to forget, to reject and to deny certain inconvenient truths of our life.

A trained mind would accept anything that comes across, however harsh it is! Or rather it should. A trained mind is a matured mind.

And in denial, the maturity is denied.