I am broke...but how could I?

I am broke. Mo laughed when I told him. He asked how I could be? He laughed exactly the same way I laughed at him when he said the same two days back. I can never be broke. He believes. According to him, I will definitely have money at the ATM but may not be in my wallet. My dear Mo, even my ATM is sort of empty.

But why not?

We all are broke at some point in time. There were many times I was broke in the past. But this is different. Actually Mo has a point.

There are some good souls who owe me. But they conveniently forget. How could anyone conveniently forget the things when they owe someone? I really wonder. Unless they don't care. You know what was the answer when I reminded, "Oh I have but I  thought, I can use it for some more time"  I try not to use Zay's favourite phrase; capital  _  _.   It sounds good when he says it!

Frankly speaking this time, I feel lighter, though I missed all sorts of nuts in my oats and at least three types of juices, though I miss the exotic rich side. There is no bugging questions in my mind. Perhaps I allowed myself to pass through this. I am more of myself. I read a lot. I smile a lot. I walk a lot. I am happier. And I am not pretending to be rich, or not broke. As Osho said, no phony image. A friend of mine called me yesterday Ohsini..I like the name!

Now I know how it feels when some students tell me, "Ms Sentha, I am broke" I should empathise with them, and I will.

Chris will be shocked to read this. "Why di Senthu, you write all these things on FB?" Chris, I can imagine your face. Chris was the first person whom I said about this few days back. She was concerned, I think. Mo was the second person, He laughed. And another friend was the third person, he asked a simple 'y'. Same message, different reactions.

I am back to basics, actually there is a great lesson behind this. Accepting. I accepted it without any complains. And I didn't let my ego dominate me.  When ego sleeps, one feels humble. And it is great to be simple. May be that's why I look happier, Chris?

Mostly, I end up situation like this when I lend money. So here are some golden rules that you may consider before lending to anyone.

• Just check if the person is really in need of  money when he or she asks you. If he can survive for one or two days without borrowing, let him. I am not telling you to be mean. 
• Know the person before you lend. The philosophical idea of "giving unconditionally" doesn't work here. Philosophy won't help you when you are hungry. Worse case, you may come up with your philosophy, that's all.
• Don't, DON'T, lend money to the same kind of people, if you know their repaying habits, please. I made this mistake few times. We have a great saying in Tamil, "Pathiram arinthu pichaiiddu". You need to know the vessel or the bowl before you put food in it. (sorry for the literal translation.)Not everyone is genuine or in desperate need of help.
• Let them learn a lesson about borrowing money. The one thing we can never tarnish our image is in the repaying habits. Of course, you can't stop anyone from borrowing. If then, City bank, HSBC, Standard Chattered and the World Bank may not exist.

Now, this is about the job.

• Mo, definitely has a point. I recalled what my ex colleague from Bangladesh told me. If the job doesn't give you the financial security that you are supposed to get, do something about it. He is back in Bangladesh.

Note:

• I am broke. But not mentally, so no worries.
• I am treating myself with a movie tonight, to compensate. 

And of course, in life, EVERYTHING is temporary. This too shall pass.